Random

I don't know.. sometimes I feel so random.

I want to cry but can't find the reason why I have to cry

I want to laugh but there's no such funny things to laugh at

My mind, my heart.. they're going somewhere

Hard to focus, unconsciously I trap myself inside this circle

That's why I need people around

They keep me staying on earth, they take over my vision

Even though I don't say anything at all.. me with my silent mouth

I don't know.. sometimes I miss my childhood

Call me spoiled, but I just want to hug my mother now

Tell her I did many mistakes, I worried many things on my future

And I know my mother will simply tell me "don't worry, everything will be okay"

Sometimes I feel alone when I enter my bed room

And find the wall hiding the sun behind

I want to make it fall into pieces

Shouting out my thoughts

Then I can run, run, run

But where do I go?

The blank point will still exist, no matter where I am...

I don't know, this 3-day nonstop headache has messed me up

.... or maybe I just forget to be thankful?

update : then everything's going fine after I eat a bowl of muntahu, practice for sendratari, and laugh. thanks God :)